Plan for June holiday

First week of June suppose to be holiday..but then the school want us to go back to school for some classes..sian la!!!>.<..but then happy that there's no geography..hahas..lucky i'm not history..if not now should be in school le..and there's no mathematics..haha..super happy about it..hmm..Mrs Tang said tomorrow she won't be in school..so tomorrow i can rest at home liao lor!!..haha..

Second week of June..will have to study at home liao..but 11th June going out to Sentosa and spend the whole day with Crystal & Firdaus and my dear..WoW..and that day will be the first time i wear Bikini..>//<..hahas..can't wait for the day..

Third and Fourth week of June..study and study and study..forget about the Vulunteer work le la!!..you all want mi to study isn't it?!!..like in the past..study study study and study..never going out..then too stress and become emo again..that's all you want right?..can..give mi two weeks i can be emo liao..!!!!!

Last week of June..school reopen..30th June is Nabil's birthday..i should start to think what to give lor..^^

girls are the real STMF..

Before i tell you the reason why the girls are the real STMF..

let mi tell you what is the meaning of STMF first..

STMF = Sweet Talk Mother Fucker..mean a person who good at sweet talk..

or make his or her the other half feel touch a cry..

well..let's begin the stories..shall we?..

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Boy:i like you..i want to see you everyday..

so will you be my girlfriend please?

Girl:no..

Boy:why?

Girl:i don't like you..but i love you..

i don't want to see you everyday..

but i want to see you all the time..

so will you be my boyfriend please?

Boy:(knock the head and eyes fill with tears)

yes yes yes!!

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isn't it the girl in the story good a sweet talk?

well..it is a true story..

which happened when i was in primary school..

haha..of course i'm not the girl..

but the boy was my friend..

he liked her for a long time..

but then the sad thing is that..

the girl is too pro at sweet talk..

2weeks after they've been together..

the boy found out that she got other boyfriends..

so this relationship end up with break up..

well..let's listen to the other story..

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Guy bought flowers and a ring..

he wanted to propose to his girlfriend..

*after the fire work*

Guy:will you marry mi?

i'm willing to take care of you for the rest of my life..

and i love you so deeply..

Girl:no

Guy:why?i have bought the flowers and ring..

Girl:i don't want flowers..but i want your accompany..

i don't want ring..but i want your kisses..

i don't want you to take care of mi for the rest of your life..

but willing to share the burden in the future..

willling to face the problems together..

and i love you deeper and deeper each day..

so..will you marry mi?

Guy:(feeling touch and knock the head with the eyes fill with tears)

yes i do..

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well..it's a true story too..

but then they end up divoice..

as the girl has lot of guys outside after and before marriage..

the guy found out half year after the wedding..

well..it's not mi but my friend..

in this two stories the girl is the same person..

the same bitch..the same bastard..the same idiot..

but then she's a poor thing too..

she kena raped by a guy in the pub..

she was pregnant when she's 14..

and now she's a mother..i think she's 15 this year..

what i can remember is that she's younger than mi..

what i heard from my friends today..

she still go around flirting and sweet talk to guys..

she's quite pretty..but then the reason for her to sweet talk around..

is because she know that those guys are willing to spend money on her..

well..you may want to ask..what about her son?

well..i can answer you..she give her son to her mother to take care..

she doesn't know how to take care of herself..

i think she think the sexual thing wrongly..

she is go have sex around in the pub!!!!..

shame on her..

i can't understand her..i did it with the person i love..

i did it because it's a way of showing love to each other..

but then she did it because she love it..

because the guys will buy for her lots of things after sex..

oh my goodness god..

one of my friend said recently..she's pregnant again..

but then this time she like really don't care lots..

she still having sexual intercourse with guys..

and smoke around..drink around..

haiz..well..it's her life..what i can do just to comment on the blog..

i can't teach her what to do..isn't it..

just that the way she think about the sexual thing seems to be wrong..

and it's very very wrong..

well..just hope her parents can bear with it..and try to talk to her..

Nisa...

Yes..he's the one who ask mi to break with you..at first i don't know why..until after i break with you..he started to ask mi to break with Nabil,Danial and even Sabri who is not really close to mi that time..he do know that Nabil and Danial are my best brother..he do know that Sabri was just my classmate..but he kept asking mi to break with Nabil and Danial..that's why i got a quarrel with him..when he told mi that Sabri might have crush on mi..he told mi not to talk to Sabri..in case he get the wrong meaning..well..about Sabri and mi..we fall for each other on the first day of March holiday actually..just that Joe doesn't know as i thought it's a simple crush..and that's when i decided to break with him..after Sabri confess to mi..i just realize that i have no longer have feeling for Joe..i've fall for Sabri..and it is not a simple crush..therefore i really break with him..

That time Joe wanted mi to test you..i don't know it's about what..so we pretend break up before valentine..but then actually we went out on Valentine's day..

I've been so tired when i was with him as i have to pretend happy when i was with him..if not he comfirm will keep asking mi questions or ignore mi..or maybe just using his "way" to make mi happy..but i don't really like his "way" to make mi happy..it makes mi feel that i'm a "S" machine for him..well..you know what's his "way"..

So far..i've been so happy when i'm with Sabri..as i can't angry with him..lol..whenever i angry with him..i will just simply forgive him..and i easily to get jealous..well..we make each other jealous all the time actually..when i'm with Sabri..i do not need to pretend..when i feel sad..he always trying to comfort mi..everytime i with Sabri..he always trying his best to make mi happy..after the monday accident..well..he know what accident i mean..i can see that he really care for mi a lot..he told mi he wanted to company mi don't want to go home..but if is Joe..comfirm will go home and expect i get help from his friends or other people..

Joe always give bad comment on my friends..including you..and i don't really know why..whenever i told him about what we did in school..he just showed an unhappy face..i felt sad after i break with you..and i've told him how sad i was..but he just don't really care that much..Sabri is totally different from Joe..well..i think you understand Sabri..so i don't need to explain..

Hmm..i'm not comparing both of them..but to tell you this..because i chose a wrong person-Joe..that's why i lost a friend-YOU..i lost a friendship..and i lost the confident..and i regret and sad for it..

And now i hope that this time i chose the right person-Sabri..as he also want us to be friend again..he's always there when i need him..and i also hope that i'm always be here whenever you need mi..but don't know if you willing to come to mi when you have trubles or problems..

I've made a wrong choice in the past..and now i hope that i really made a right choice..

I hope you can make a right choice for yourself too..but remember..must not regret it and must be happy after you make the choice..

I want you to be happy always..=)

to friends..

Chacha,
argh..sorry ya..was typing to0 fast..well..at least i've tried my best le..i will let her think about it..

Nisa,
i left u when u need mi..it's alright if u need time to think..anyway..i also really scare i might hurt u again..as i don't really know how to care for someone properly..will give u time to think..and will wait for ur answer..=)..

a letter to Nisa

Nisa,

LoL..Cha cha want mi to make a first move..she want us to be close friend again..well..i do not
angry with her thought as i regret to break with you..after i break with you..i realize that i
have no friend in school until i close to Saheera..i wanted to talk to you..but i just don't know
what should i say as i scare that the more i say the further distance we have..so i rather we
become normal classmate than being a stranger..i really have no fairth in myself..i scare that if
i talk to you we might become stranger..because i'm really not good in words and i'm the one
who hurt you..

After i end the friendship with you..i had many many quarrel with Joe..he was the one who
suggest mi to break with you..when i told him that i regretted the end of our friendship..he
tried to stop mi from patching up with you..and i angry at him for that..slowly i realize that he
always gave bad comments of my friends..after we break..he told mi nabil and danial also not
a good friends..well..that makes mi more and more angry..when he saw Sabri and asked mi
not to close with Sabri..i chose to break with him..and becomes Sabri's baby girl..i really can't
stand of his selfishness and i really like Sabri that time..

Well..yesterday Sabri explain to mi that he sat infront alone very lonely..so he sat with you and disturbed you..i really jealous when i saw that..and felt scare..i scare i might lost him..but
then i trust you and Denise also said that Sabri was kept looking at mi..well..you had being my
Girlfriend for at least one year..you should know mi more than anyone else..i'm not confidence
with myself..that's why i jealous,angry and feel scare whenever i saw him talking..sitting..staring at other girls..i scare of losing him as i know that there's a lot more girls who is better than mi..

Hmm..so..would you mind to give mi another chance to be your girlfriend again?would you
mind to give mi another chance to be your close friend like last time?..

九百九十九隻泰迪熊

有一個男孩非常的深愛著一個女孩

千辛萬苦終於打動了女孩的心

從第一天交往開始男孩就送女孩泰迪熊

交往的第一百天

男孩又送了一隻泰迪熊給女孩

女孩受不了問了男孩：

這已經是第一百隻泰迪熊了。難道除了熊，就不能送其他的禮物嗎？

男孩只是對女孩笑了一下

交往的第五百天是情人節

女孩期待能收到花

結果男孩還是送女孩一隻泰迪熊

女孩很氣男孩在一起之前一直追她

在一起之後卻連一句”我愛你“也沒說

兩個人在一起的第一千天

女孩等著男孩的時候

心想如果男孩又送泰迪熊

那麼女孩就會結束這段感情

一個小時過去了 五個小時過去了

很少遲到的男孩這次卻遲遲未出現

女孩心裡有點擔心

於是 她決定去找男孩

快到男孩的住所時

她看到一隻她所熟悉的手 握著一隻泰迪熊

然而那隻手的主人正被壓在卡車下

那是她所愛的男孩

女孩趕緊跑了過去將男孩拉出

男孩為了等著見到女孩 死撐著最後一口氣

男孩將泰迪熊給了女孩並說：

如果可以，我希望死的人是你，這樣一來，痛苦的人是我。可是我可以改變嗎？不行，所以你會痛苦的哭著。如果可以，我希望我不會愛上妳，這樣一來，妳現在就不會哭了。可是我可以不愛妳嗎？不行，所以我愛你，對不起，讓你哭了。

女孩聽了 只能哭著面對男孩

男孩用了最後的力氣按了泰迪熊的心

泰迪熊說了一聲：I Love You

男孩看著女孩說：對不起，我愛你

說完男孩閉上眼沈睡了

在葬禮上 送完男孩最後一程後

女孩回家看著男孩送的九百九十九隻泰迪熊

再看看手上的第一千隻

她沈思了一會兒 之后便去按每隻泰迪熊的心

結果每隻泰迪熊都說：I Love You

女孩這才明白

其實男孩每天都跟她說她最想聽的三個字－我愛你

女孩又哭了

隱隱約約看到第一千隻泰迪熊的手上有一枚戒指

更令女孩心痛的是 當女孩緊握著泰迪熊的手時

泰迪熊說：Will You Marry Me?

原來

男孩

打算在那一天

向女孩求婚

可惜

已經

沒機會了....

i miss you..

today..playing computer half way..

lo0ked at the clock..

argh!!

i did scream..

because time really fly slow when i'm waiting to see him..

hahas..yeah right..

today i'm meeting him AGAIN!!..

well..don't worry..we are not going to do something bad..

we are going to study for POA..

because tomorrow is POA paper le..

haha!

well..so far..i did lots of things today..

i uploaded new pictures of mi..

i sms with my di..

i played restaurant city on facebook..

i chat with Jeremy Yeow..

i played vampire bite and bloodline..

but the thing that spend most of my time is..

THINKING OF HIM NON STOP!!..

haha..

anyway..i realise that the bastard really don't want o contact mi..

as he deleted mi in facebook..

i believe that he also deleted my number as i did too..

well..now..the nine months is just part of the history..

he is a good guy that i can never forget..

but then why i still can't LIKE him..

i just don't get it..

hehe..

but i know why i can LOVE my di..

but not him..

because di is the reason for mi to love..

i'm his baby girl..REALLY!!

the S couple

Today is the 7th days i've been with my di..

i realise that i've love him so much..

since yesterday he gave mi his important thing..

i keep telling myself not to let him down..

not to let go of him as he's the ONE LAST GUY for mi to love..

oh yes..Muhammad Sabri Bin Rahmad..

is my one last guy..

i love him no matter what..

i mean it when i say loving him missing him knowing him..

more and more day by day..

to be honest..

this is the first time..

well..

not the first boyfriend i have i mean..

what i mean is that this is the first time..

i've been keep telling people that..

this guy is my ONE LAST GUY I LOVE IN THE REST OF MY LIFE..

and also the first time..

that i give up someone just because LOVE..

i prayed to God..

i'm willing to give up everything..

just to be with my di..

just to be his only biie..

i'm willing to convert my religion..

i'm willing to change my habit (flirting)..

and i did it..

i do stop flirting people around mi..

and also on the internet..

i prayed to God..

i ask for the forgiveness..

but i DO NOT regret..

and WILL NOT regret..

for what i have done for my di..

for what i have chose for my path...

Since the day my di told mi he LIKE mi..

i've realise that i LIKE him too..

because of the word "LIKE"..

i give up someone that i spent nine months with..

the feeling of LIKE still there..

untill i met him and spend time with my di..

the feeling really change into LOVE..

he LOVE mi and i LOVE him..

we really don't want to be apart..

if can't be together because of the religion..

i'm willing to give up my religion..

i'm willing to spend my time to learn about his religion..

to end this..

i want to say again..

MUHAMMAD SABRI BIN RAHMAD!!

I LOVE YOU I MISS YOU

MORE AND MORE DAY BY DAY!!

the reason for mi to say it..

is quite lame..

but i still want to say..

it is because..

YOU ARE THE ONE LAST GUY I LOVE

FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE!!