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doesn't feel sad but empty deep in my heart

realize the pain after whacking the wall so hard

my hands getting numb

my eyesight getting blur

my body getting cold

my mind and my heart are so empty

feeling lonely but have to smile

feeling empty but have to laugh

first tear sliding down from my face

drop on the keyboard

am ignore it and continue typing

one drop two drops three drops

i can't count it anymore

can't stop the tears

and i still have to type it down

my heart getting pain

little pain with lots of empty spaces

my hands getting numb

as i whack the wall too hard

after the pain

after the tear

i will pretend

pretend i don't know you

pretend there's nothing happen

pretend i don't love you

pretend to smile and laugh

pretend to be a bad girl

pretend to be strong

pretend to be happy without you

so..don't worry..

you're mean for her..