giving up??

Giving up??oh yes..still trying to giving up somebody in my heart..i've try my best to forget about the somebody but it seem doesn't work..

Wrote the memories on papers and tear it again and again..papers so easy to tear however the memories still in my mind..so difficult to forget..

Deleted his number and save it again and again..number is so easy to delete and save..but those memories..difficult..really difficult to delete from my mind..

Found a boyfriend..wondering if he could help me to forget about him..however i still treating him like a friend..even thought i do have feeling for him..but the feeling isn't strong enough for me to forget about him..

It's really hurts..wondering does it help to forget about him if i give up my life..he won't care anymore..isn't it...

Giving up??my life??oh yes..trying to do the last step..if it still doesn't work..i think i have to give up..i don't want to waste my whole life to love him..love someone who used to loved me so much and yet hurt me the most too..



P.S. still forcing myself to smile even thought it hurts......