it's enough...

Well..i will be single for now..will start to have a new boyfriend on my birthday which is on 17th September..before my birthday come..i have to settle everything and relax a little..i feel too stress to think about relationship,church,school and family at the same time..since relationship is the main reason..then i will give up then..also give him sometimes to think..as long as he want since he said he need time to think..

I've said to him whatever i want to say..i think it's better for us to be friend and brother like we used to..we'll consider about this relationship again when he have think throught it and confirm with me one day..

Today i cried..everything just so pop out and so du lan..a super fucking best friend of mine in taiwan pass away because of the stupid fucking dumb typhoon..my mom is being crazy as she keep asking me to do ALL the housework every nights..she even wake me up to do the housework in the middle of the night..she never ask my sister to do..the reason is my sister is tired..WTH!!..my churchmates also pushing all the things to me..that really make me piss off..and finally i cried..well..crying like hell better than break down and be emo..right??

Dan..sorry to make you worry..i promise i won't do stupid stuffs to my body again..i promise i will be happy and smiling everything..i will try my best to smile even if it hurts..

Siti..thanks for being my listening ear..really thanks alot..

Crystal..thanks for being my listening ear and giving me lots of advice..

Mich..sorry i really piss off today..sorry for shouting at you..

Bil..i really never punch Siti!!..><..i don't beat girls..instead of beating or punching a girl i rather punching or beating a guy..because guy more strong..hahas..

Haraboy..congratulation..we've come to the end..we've been together for one month one week and one day..i will give you time to think..as long as you want..you can tell me your answer anytime..by then we'll consider about this relationship again..



P.S. daddy..i've let you down..please stop being so nice to me..please..don't make me feel more and more guilty..you're the best and perfect father..i've forgive you or your mistake..because i've done a biggest mistake..yet you still forgive me..daddy..i really miss you..please..don't be so nice to me..please take care..daddy please take good care of yourself..