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Saw their pictures today..was reading their blogs..haiz..time fly past..everyone has grown up and change a lots..everythings has change..but one thing still remain the same is the thoughts the dreams and the memories..we still sharing the thoughts the dreams and the memories together..althought we're far apart..

No matter how far we are from each other..cities..countries..or maybe just living in a different world..i believe that we'll meet again one day..we'll be together one day as long as we keep thinking of each other non-stop..God will give up and let us be together..at least we have the dreams and the memories to keep us moving on..isn't it??..

Well..why am i blogging with a serious tone..it's because of my friend..he still in coma..heard that they can't afford to let him stay in C.I.U..the hospital has change him to another cheap room which they can afford for few days only..haiz..what can i do since i can't be there for him?..just pray that they will have enough money for him to go under operation in few days??..

I suddenly feel that i am such a useless person as i can't be there when friends is in danger or trouble..or should say..i can't even see him when he's dying soon..all of us has already give up the hope..if this is a test to test our friendship..we've already pass..please let him awake or just end his pain..

We wanted him to awake..we wanted him to be health and laughing with us again..but now..we want him to die so that he won't suffer in this kind of horrible pain..he's in coma..but that doesn't mean he can't feel anything..so many needles on his hands his chests and his head..just have to imagine how pain will that be..

I really feel like want to turn back the time..let me be the one who got into the accident..be the one who is in horrible pain right now and bear the pain for him..but i can't do it..i am just a nomal human creature..i am not a God..i can't turn back the time..so..what can i do?complain to God?..will he listen?..or i just kill myself in order to change his life?..