things get worse..

About half an hour ago..i received a message from my friend..he wanted me to call him back..and i use house phone to call back to taiwan..well..it takes me a lot of time to use the card actually..here's our conversation while i chatting with Shidah..

Bevawa: 做么？
(ya?)
doggy: 有個消息啊、想知嗎？
(got a news..you want to know?)
Bevawa: 啥消息？
(what news?)

**heard someone or maybe somebody crying**

Doggy: 林醫說他可能隨時都會走、
(doctor lim said he might go at anytime)
Bevawa: 幹！騙人！
(fxxk!liar!!)
Doggy: 是真的..所以..
(really..so..)
Bevawa: 所以啥？
(so what?)
Doggy: 他說想說啥么就快說吧..多花點時間陪他..
(he said that say whatever we want to say to him..spend more time with him)
Bevawa: 他醒了？
(he's awake?)

**well..it does gave me some hope..but soon..disappointed come..**

Doggy: 沒、還在...昏迷..
(no..still..coma..)
Bevawa: 大概？
(how long can he last?)
doggy: 幾天...
(few days..)

**skip the part we cried and my friend passed the phone to the doctor**

Bevawa: 喂！姓林的我警告你！我雖然不在臺灣！但是如果...
(oii!! Lim!! i warn u ! althought i'm not in taiwan!! but if..)
Doctor: 小姐 請你冷靜好嗎？你是他的誰？
(miss please calm down ok..who are you?)
Bevawa: 我是他的..人啦！我警告你..如果他發生了啥么事.我就！
(i'm his..woman la!!..i warn u! if something happen to him..i will!)
Doctor: 接受現實吧..我們都已經盡力了..
(accept the fact ok..we did our best..)
Bevawa: 盡力個屁！你們做了啥么？等錢？等他死？？
(best ur head la!! what did you do? waiting for the money?? waiting for him to die??)

**then i had a big cried..my friends comforted me in the phone**

Bevawa: 對不起..讓我冷靜一下..好嗎？
(sorry..leave me alone ok?)
Doggy: 恩..對不起..
(ok..sorry..)
Bevawa: 對不起..我沒用..沒辦法陪在他身邊..
(sorry..i'm useless..can't stay by his side..)
Doggy: 對不起..不該讓你這么傷心..別哭了..
(sorry..shouldn't make u so sad..don't cry..)

So let me summarize the conversation..my friend..might go at any time..maybe tomorrow or tonight..or..later..but i am being so useless..i can't be there for him..what i can do is to take out all his pictures and everything he gave me..and keep recalling the memories..oh gosh..the memories is like so fresh..feel like i just get to know him yesterday..i miss him..really..i can't lost him..God..give me another chance..please.....

How i wish it could be a lie from my friends..how i wish they prank me again this time..since i know about it on tuesday..every morning when i woke up..i just keep telling myself that it's just a dream..nothing happen actually..but then..the message disappoint me..i deleted the message..thought of making myself feeling better..well..at least let me lie to myself..but i really not good at lying to myself..

I wish tomorrow when i wake up..everything is going to be fine...